recent feeling

mood become bad and bad...
maybe because the weight is keeping growing...
this make me feel down..
have to keep fits ald...
suling...jia you...u can de...!
i have to do so also..
want to do curly hairs..
but have to wait...
haix......

FUNNY THING IN THE TRIPS

1st day trips in the PERLIS and THAILAND
stephy, ping, emay, jian, lok and me...our 6 person trips..

1st funny thing we did...
as usual we are always bising here bising there..
in the bus we also bising with arrange our bag..
the most funny de is...
sleep till last station also dun wan go down from the bus
the bus driver ask us tak mau turun arh??
ambil sini hotel arh? tidur.. tidur...
kena halau from bus also 1st time for me...haha^^
damn funny...until the people at tepi jalan also laugh us..

2nd memorable thing is where we trying to enter the THAILAND...
nervous, worry, scare and etc.. haha..
really unbelieveable we can go in without passport..
the guard like no see us...we really lucky that day..
if something happen.... fine RM10000 per person...
we all dunno how to speak thai languange...
but we also can survive.. a big clap to us..^^
MALAYSIA money really small... RM10 just can change 9.8 bath..
i still dunno how to use the Thai bath...
heart feel so pain when drink one cup of water need my 35 bath..
we spend our time at the DIANA CENTER and LOTUS..
when come out from the THAILAND...
again we feel scare...the kastam check our car...
they ask us open our bonnet...
but luckily they let us go....
just hope fas fas come out from there...
THANK GOD...
we are safe came out from THAILAND....

3nd we take pic with the "GUNUNG NAI"
we have to stand at the sawah padi there...
suddenly i hear something moving toward us..
i scare is snake...i quickly tarik stephy hand and run.....run...
behind us is emay and wei jian..
they see have a LEMBU is come toward us..
they faster jump back to the road there..
just leave me and stephy keep runs..
stephy say she wan home...haha
1st time in our life dikejar lembu...
the most funny de is our camera gal...yen ping
see us run like a hell....
she keep say dun run le...there is a good position to take pic...
but we no care wat she say just run....
actually she no realize that we dikejar lembu...mooooo...
i think stephy can recognise wat is lembu now..! wakaka..

4nd go fetch lok...
so pity he cant go to THAILAND...
he keep calling us...
but we close our phone...
because it is double charges...
this sure make lok scare lo... no respons from us...
summore he dunno where is PERLIS... haha...

END OF EXAM

hohohoho~~~
holiday..
last subject finally end ald...
dunno how to describe the feeling right now...
but freshback the day before audit exam..
i keep thinking of playing..playing..
langsung no mood to study....
feel so guity...keep tell myself i cant be like that..
study til wanna vomit...haha...
hope i will pass all subject.. pls..
after exam all stress is gone...
yum cha wif tax lecture awhile...
but we like no care he..wakaka..
keep planning our trips...
stephy no dare to ask her papa..
because she is sick.. pity her..
nvm, i help her ask..
calling her papa..
very funny...^^
her papa very worry, scare sth happen during trips..
i keep pujuk him...
i say i will take care her daughter well de..
her papa keep laugh..
the most funny de is when he ask me when go?
i straight say "tonite"..
her papa terkejut and laugh..
but finally her papa also allow her go...
then packing time lo...
wait the times to depart to PUDU..

.:.elaine.:.

THANK YOU

THANK YOU...
FOR HEARING MY "LAO TAO"..
THE INCIDENT KEEP MAKE ME THINK TOO MUCH..
I CANT FOCUS TO STUDY FOR MY LAST SUB..

THANK MUM...
HEARING MY PROBLEM...
I M SO TOUCH..

THANK BY..
BE THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEED YOU..
TELLING ME THAT IT IS OK..
ALTHOUGH WE ARE FAR...
I IN MALAYSIA YOU IN SINGAPORE..
I NO REGRET WITH MY DECISION..^^
U TELL ME PROVE IS IN MY HAND...
WHY I WAN TO BE SCARE...
THE BOOK IS ONLY THING CAN PROOF YOU DO WRONG..
YOU SAY IS CORRECT..!
BUT THE INVIGILATOR CAN TAKE PIC WAT??
HAIX.........PLEASE TELL ME IZZIT I M BEING TERMINATED???
LET ME CLAM DOWN AND CONCENTRATE...!

THANK TO MY FREN..
KEEP HEAR ME TALK RUBBISH..
TELLING ME NOTHING..
IS ME THINK TOO MUCH D..
BUT WHEN FACE THIS KIND OF PROBLEM
HOW DUN WAN TO THINK O??
HAHA..........!

ANYWAY THANK YOU TO YOU ALL..
HOPE I WILL NOTHING...

*ELAINE*

UNBELIEVEABLE

FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I FACING MOMENT LIKE THIS..
I SO SCARE, NERVOUS, MIND IS BLANK..
WAT SHOULD I DO??
THE MOMENT I BRING THE COMPANY ACT INSIDE THE EXAM HALL..
I SHOULD GUESS THAT THIS WOULD HAPPEN..
I CAN DO THE PAPER WITHOUT USING THE ACT..
BUT AT LAST I ALSO BRING IT INSIDE..
WHEN SEE THE INVIGILATOR CHECK THE ACT ONE BY ONE..
I BECOME NERVOUS AND NERVOUS..
MAKE ME CANT CONCENTRATE TO DO..
WHEN COME TO MY TURN...
I TELL THE INVIGILATOR CAN I DUN WAN TO USE THE ACT
AT FIRST SHE FEEL WEIRD, WHY HAVE SUCH STUDENT...!
THEN WHEN SHE RELEASE THE ACT IS FULL OF WRITTING..
SHE RUN TO MY LECTURE MR.LONGAN...
I SEE THE INVIGILATOR KEEP ISH ISH..KEEP STEP THE FOOT..
FUNNY...! MR. LONGAN COME TO ME...
HE ASK ME YOU REALLY DUN WAN USE.. I SAY YES!!
WHEN HE WALK TO ME... I CAN SEE HIS DISAPPOINTED FACE..
HONESTLY I ALSO FEEL DISAPPOINTED ON ME..
WHY I WAN BRING THAT ACT INSIDE ALTHOUGH I KNOW THAT THIS WOULD HAPPEN.. "CONTINGENT LIABILITIES"..
AFTER PASS THE ACT TO THE INVIGILATOR..
I MORE CALM DOWN AND JUST CAN FOCUS ON MY EXAM..
AFTER EXAM THE INVIGILATOR RETURN THE ACT TO ME..
SHE SAY LUCKILY YOU SURRENDER..
HAHA~ A FUNNY STATEMENT..
BUT I STILL SCARE...!
AM I WILL BEING TERMINATED??
I M SO WORRY...!
I NO CHEAT IN EXAM...
I SWEAR...! IF I DO SO... STH BAD WILL HAPPEN ON ME..
HAIX... JUST HOPE NTH HAPPEN TO ME...
PLS......

*ELAINE*

DIRECTION

where is my DIRECTION??
I lost it again...
Final is coming...
i haven study at all..
L-A-Z-Y...
playing mood is more than study mood..
mana pergi my study mood??
faster come back arh??
I need it....!
My brain xant function well with stupid problem..
i wan to quit my agreement with my owner..
because i gonna move to new house soon..
staying wif my hiao geng.
if i wanna move out i shuld be find a person to replace my room..
but the problem is my owner gonna sold the room when the agreement is end..
so that it is impossible for me to find a person to replace my room..
and after 3 month she need to move out...!
so what shuld i do??
worrying the deposit cant get back??
worrying too much d...
make me hard to focus to the studies...
help me please....
FIND BACK MY DIRECTION...!

.:.elaine.:.

APOLOGIZE

sorry... mr teddy bear..
no matter how many times i say sorry..
i know it is hard for you to forgive me...
we cant enter into relationship but we can be the best best fren..
i so glad, when i sad u be there for me..
give me support, happiness...
thank you..
human is complicated...
like to think too much...
i m the one...
i care too many...
i very care my appearance..
it hard for me to believe why you like me??
why you choose me??
i m not that good plus i m ugly gal...
i also hard to believe you like me??
what the outsider will think le??
they also hard to believe it arh??
how come a guy will choose a ugly gal be his gf??
ppl will laugh like the hell... u know??
wat i will feel??
i no have confidence at all arh...
please dun come and drop it to zero arh...
cruel to you also cruel to myself...
i let go a GOOD guy...
this is my lost...
you will find someone like you the most in the future..
god will always bless you...
thank you for caring and loving me...
hope you understand my decision...^^

.:.elaine.:.